*yawns*

ONE down....

ONE more to go....

YYYYESSSSSSHHH!!!!

Management accounting nearly killed me...i got so frustrated studyin dat stupid subject...(@.@)...but thk god i studied da rite chapter and da questions came out as wat i studied!

*heart pumping hard*...as i walk towards da hall..searching for familiar faces...and yeah i found a few classmates...some wer still readin da notes..n i felt like a lazy pig cuz i wasnt studyin anymore..it was 15 more mins to 9am...therefore i decide not to study as my brain wont go blank once i go into da hall. Before i open da question paper..i was telling God plz make it easy..plz let those chapters dat i have studied come out..and *TA DA*!!heheh...as wat i asked for...lalalala~!i din read da questions yet but i took out my pencil and start writing da formulas before i forget them...hehehe...as i handle my paper to da lecturer..i had a smile on my face...*owh NO*actually i was smilling thru out da exam..cuz i knw how to do..hehehe..im weird *SO WAT??!*...xD

next up is Financial Accounting Practice on thurs...owh yeah i knw i suck as an accountant..hehehe..i failed both accounting sub.. x)

&& mah JOYCEEEE and TERRENCE...thx for making my day yday!!!thk u for dropping by juz to make sure im alrite...*im TOUCH!* ...i was down b4 u came..but wen i got ur call..hahaha...i immediately turned HYPER!...xD...yday was totaly a boredom until u two juz brighten up my day.

HOWEVER..i cudnt be too happy yet...cuz i hav one more paper to go..

(>.<)

*Yawns*

slept for oni 4 hours last nite..

brain din wana take a rest..

till1 sumthing i finally doze off...

4am..

my alarm rang...

i keep snoozing til its 5am..

hehehehe..

so reluctant to get up..but i juz hav to

shall go hav my piggy nap now..

(^^)

She predicts..

dat she will fall sick SOON....

knw y?
cuz i dun well since yday..my body is like so wrong..i get tired out from juz climbing up da staircase in da hse...and i got no appetite to eat..juz dun feel like eating (>.<)

plz God dun let me fall sick yet...i hav to face my battle next week with my FINALS!!aft my battle...i dun mind getting sick

it was raining da whole aftnun at Penang...it wud be so so so nice to sleep but i was out at Sg Dua's McD studyin...Joyce and Terrence wer der to accompany me..and to teach da stupid me xD

there wer two pervert guys beside our table..dey kept lookin at our table..and wen my fren joyce wen to refill da coke..they look at her and smile..and kept staring at her while she walks to da counter to refill and walk back...PERVERTS!!! GET A LIFE la u two...

for today..tomolo and da day aft...i gota seriously get into my books d...but im still LAZY!!!...frenz having their freedom d..and me?still stuck with BOOKS!...

Me gets reali lonely sometimes...any1 willing to be my victim?? xD
im getting beta d..so ya'll dun ned to worry d..
i dun cry..i dun go emo suddenly...
training to be tough and dats my goal!
and am i flirting?nop im not...but i cudnt deny that i go out with my guy frenz often these days..hehe...fully utilising my freedom?hahaha...probably
am gona stay single till i find a TRUE guy..a guy who loves me as much as i love him..wana takes things slowly aft tis...cuz i dun wana repeat wat i had gone thru ady..its juz too pain.
still misses him? dat i cudnt deny...
but its only SOMETIMES...
i got lots more stuff for my brain to tink of..
next week will gona be a fun Fun FUN week for me aft my finals!!!!!
EKEKEKEKEKE...will spill out da info later *grin*..
so watch out...

xD

Random pics

tis pic wer taken last week..da whole morning was raining..and as i walk towards da coll's canteen to meet up with joyce and li ying..i saw da hills wer so misty..nice eh?

Now every Thurs is my exercise day!i'll tag along with my bro to USM to play squash with his frenz..dey wer kind enuf to teach me (^^) but i stil suck at it...however hav improve much!as in not letting da ball hit me...hehehe..owh damn pain wen it hits da body..

retarded bro...u dun hav to look ugly to make me look pretty...ekekekek xD

USM's tracks...it was my world wen i was young...its da place where i came for running competition and my training ground...i'll spent like 1 whole week here for running competition..and alws b4 da competition..we'll spent weeks for training here.and da best part..we get to skip class! ekekeke...dat was b4 i shifted to kl..if i dint shift i might join da Penang's runners team..(>.<)..dreams crashed wen my teacher call me up dat i got chosen but i gota tell her dat i'm leaving to kl d...*sob sob*..aft goin kl..i join da kl's school running team...HAH!

PICS OF my week...*i mean last weeek* (^^)

our tuesday morning started here...DALAT INTERNATIONAL SKOL..joyce came and fetch me and thats wen i got to know Terrence aka baby voice...lol!this two teams are gals...din reali njoy much watchin tis game..cuz its not BOYS PLAYING!hehehehe...xD

aft camwhoring in dalat..we had to go for our last COMP LAB class...

i din care wat is da lecturer is teaching...i juz kept snapping pics all da way thru her class...cuz i HATE her!..everyday with her sour face... i hav neva see her smile...

another 1...xp

our last pic together in da LAB...tho we wont miss it..cuz we'll b der still for da next 3 years..

me joyce nisa veron

DA NEXT DAY......

i brot my eyeliner to coll..and my luvly makeup artist draw for me!hehehe...

moi and my piku LI YING!

aft dat NISA cudnt resist me...she starts kissing me!!and da usual me..bcame shy...i try to back off...

but then...aiya..i let her kiss me ba..since i wud not be receiving her kisses for a month!!!...di dun mind being tot of as a lesbo..cuz she's HOT!too bad..unavailable d..xD

wen da lecture starts..i wer super duperly rajin...but aft dat.....

happily enjoying my lollipop!wahakaka....

for lunch we ended up in gurney as usual..haihz..sick of dat place d...but wat to do..da nearest mall to our coll...wen to Kim Gary to eat...*korean noodles...*

at nite..we wen coffee island!a last minute plan...sry VERON..we 4gotten to ask u out..our bad..
owh tis drink...u may neva wana touch..its eeeeewwww...cuz we mix super much stuff in der...soya sauce...salt...pepper...sugar...milk...tea...UGH!i knw we r sickos...but we r FUN! XD

at gurney...moi...joyce...liying
however suddenly i became emo...

but i still camwhore aft dat...heheheh...=)

LUVS LIFE!

shall continue in another post...*soon

Single and available (^^)

*caught him as a hostage*

ekekekeke.....

nahla...xD

wud i be so cruel?

Well well....

i knew him thru facebook and guess wad?

he has a band called *asnaivekiller*

for my luvly frenz living in kl...

u cud go check this band up as dey alws hav gigs in kl!

sadly..none in penang

=(

Last but not least...

GALS!!!LISTEN UP...

he is SINGLE n AVAILABLE...

hehehe...

so if ya'll interested...

giv me ur name and contact..

okies?

xD

* see how good am i promoting u in my luvly blog*

(^^)

hhehehee.....

owh yeah...

his name is JOSEPH aka JOE

TODAY...had super fun chatting in msn...

cuz 5 HOT CHICKS chatting in a window...

hehe...

da 5 HOT CHICKS are...

JOYCE , MOI , NISA , VERON and AH YONG..

owh every1 is crazy in der...

dey seem to lost their mind d aft all those books cramp into a brain

and now suddenly free from books!

im da oni 1 having finals...

haihz..how sad..

BUT...am happy to continue mah adv diploma with da HOT+LAME gals..

hehehe...xD

except for Ah Yong...she's goin kl d..

nvm...we 4 still cud ROCK TARC PENANG!

YAY!

LUV U ALL TO BITS!!

<3>

Song speaks..

哪里有彩虹告诉我
Tell me where the rainbow is
能不能把我的愿望还给我
Could you give back my wish?
为什么天这么安静
Why is the sky so quiet?
所有的云都跑到我这里
All of the clouds are running to me
有没有口罩一个给我
Is there a mask for me?
释怀说了太多就成真不了
Recalling too much of the past words can accomplish nothing
也许时间是一种解药
Perhaps time is a kind of antidote
也是我现在正服下的毒药
And aso the 1st poison im taking now


看不见你的笑 我怎么睡得着
I could not see your smile , how could i sleep well?
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
Your silhouette is so close to me , yet i cannot embrace it
没有地球太阳还是会绕
Without earth , the sun can stil circle around
没有理由我也能自己走
Without reasons , i still could walk alone
你要离开 我知道很简单
You want to go away , i know dat is very easy
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
You said dependence is our obstacle
就算放开 那能不能别没收我的爱
Even if we break up , but couldnt you receive my love
当作我最后才明白
Assuming im the last to understand

this song is by Jay Chou..i bet u guys knw it..i juz found out dat da lyrics describes wat i wana say..


OWH yeah...yday i did a bad thing..its like against da law..muahaha....
yday i drove da car back from butterworth to sp without any IC and LICENSE!ekekek...i totaly din bring my purse with me...and da best part...i KNEW IT!but i din tell my parents..i juz took da keys and drove..and da usual me speed more than da speed limit...LALALALA~! xD

i LOVE AUTO and HATES MANUAL!

i wana blog bout wat i did da last whole week..but my pics are all in penang..so bare with me...will blog bout it once im back in penang and dat is on thurs (>.<)
THXY to mah JOYCEEEE...Terrence baby voice and Li Ying mah PIKU!!!u made my week...to NISA and VERON..once i finis my finals...we go out k?!

i MISS YOU my LI YING PIKU!!!!!aawww...i 4get to hug u dat day b4 u leave ='(
muz come back and visit us weneva ur free k...if not we r goin to parit buntar to scold U! starting now...im loosing a great camwhore partner d.*sob sob*

one last time

im not sad...im not crying...
but i juz hav dat down feeling in me weneva i sit and think..

i wen and google a song called 最后一次..*Last Time*..
written by a 17yr old gal before she passed away..
tis songs is written for her bf...
and her lyric goes...

*Before i close my eyes for da last time
i wana tell u dat I Love You
i cudnt let u go while u hug me
there is still so much dat i wana tell u
im tryin my best not to shut my eyes
because if i do so..i may neva see u again
i cudnt be by ur side anymore but dun forget
da promise u made to me dat u'll live on happily on earth

my heart ady wen to a place far away from u
i cudnt watch da sunrise with u anymore cudnt wait with u till da sun comes up
its not easy to erase da memories we had together
our lives on earth is God's will..therefore do not be too sad*

meaningful rite da words?...hope her bfs lives well.

and before i totaly forget u from my system..
i wana juz say out for da last time..
i sincerely truly did Love YOU for da almost 4 years together.
hope we cud remain as best of frenz...cuz u know me way too well d and vice versa


crying is my weakness...once i start to cry...its hard to control it to stop
=(
i'll be emo wen i hear da song *hard for me to say im sorry* by boys to men..dat day wen beach with my fren...he put dat song on..n i almost cried!GAWD!i ned to control my feelings...like he said..its not MY song..i dun ned to cry weneva i hear it...but da reason bhind it is..me and HIM liked dat song b4..dats y im sad wen i listen to dat

Failures of Life..

in Life...
der is much failures...
RELATIONSHIP....STUDIES....WORK.....etc
*and i knw how much pain it will affect a person*

however...some ppl may fall deep into depression but some will not
some will choose to end their lives as they tot dat is da easiest way to end da pain..
actually..endin ur life is not da easiest way...
knw y?cuz ur actually making ur other love ones fall into da same depression for da lost..
therefore...for u ppl who tinks dat ur a failure..
SUCK IT UP & MOVE ON!

i cud do it...so do u...
der is nothing impossible...
u may find it impossible to get rid of da pain at 1st...
but aft sometime..u try to control ur feelings...it'll work
tho u wont 100% be happy..but at least ur trying ur best to 4get da pain.

im able to control myself ady..and most of all...im able to control my crying habbit!
YES!JESS u did a great job *claps for myself*..
tho i may still b sad..but not as bad as previous weeks d..
im gettin over it..im startin a new singlehood life
i dun hate him...im not angry wit him
but i still miss him sometimes..

actually its funny wen ur love 1 hurt u so much...
but u neva hate them at da end..
y izzit so??!!
probably da love u had for him/her had covered da hate in us
am i rite?

i juz hope he is fine...
happy with his life rite now..
and wana wish him all da best in life...
probably he'll find a better gal for himself
cuz we both r not destined to be 2gather.

MOVING ON...
da last whole week i was packed with activities everyday...
dats y i din hav da time to blog...
shall blog bout wat da crazy stuff i did in da next post...or next next next post...
HEHEHEHEH...
shall be having FINALS on 27th and 30th tis month...
GAWD!!!wish me luck!
(^^)

M.E.N.D.I.N.G

who cud mend tis broken heart of mine?

now i knw y der is so many ppl commit suicide cuz of

L.O.V.E

it hurts to da max

Physical pain its like a pinch on our flesh

but da mental and heart pain its like neva endin

it will neva go..

it'll stay in our heart for as long as ever

so neva look down on

L.O.V.E

cuz it'll cause da most massive PAIN in life!

i need some hope..

to bring happiness into my daily life..

to put a smile on my face..

to 4get everything in one go..

to juz realise dat everything will be alrite...

i still miss him with da lil pieces of my broken heart.

D.O.W.N

my mouth say let him go...
my heart said okay i will let him go...but..its not lettin go!!!
UGH!

today...i got home late
cuz i wana spent more time outside than bein at home
aft rching home and done with bathing...i sat on da com table and start to ponder of stuff
stuff btween me and him..and my itchy fingers start to msg him
gettin his replies made me cry all over again like a wacko..
dint stop crying till i fell asleep..wen i got up der r still tears flowing down
got up and rush to da computer..search for ppl to talk to as i dun wana cry nymore

eyes turning to a gold fish...heart turning numb...or i shall say its ady numb!

thk god i had frenz dat are alws available for me to cling on...
so for now i shall hang on to them...till i get myself 100% back on my feet to flirt around again
*donkey...i'll go kl if my dad let me k..then u bawa i pi clubbing!u said so ah!*

tomolo goin redbox again!hehehe..my current fav place..
tis video is taken last week...i wen redbox wit another fren of mine
GAH!!!in so into karaoke...im dead...
im seeing my $$ flying away fast....(^^)
sry ya da video taken da wrong way...ekekek..

saying BYE to EMO

~EMO no more~
i told myself...

i need to freaking get on with life and put da past bhind...
yeah..i may still be sad at times...
but i juz need time...
loads of it to heal da heart...

if there is a will...there is a way..
if we were meant to be together..then time will be our guide...
if its da opposite...then i gotta move on!

i came to a point wer i gota accept da fact..
2 weeks wer seriously very long for me...
its like living in hell inside me...but on da surface im still me...
i smile i laugh i joke...

every relationship doesnt end like those happy ending fairytales..
its not da same as u watch in those dramas everyday...
in reality...relatinships r hard to maintain

i breakup lotsa times...but tis time is my worst..
probably cuz we strive so much for tis relationship
and it ended up not working...

well~...one doesnt work...does not mean other future relationship doesnt work rite?

im still close to him...as frenz
havin a fren is betta than havin an enemy rite?
tho it hurts wen i come to tink of it...
things like tis cudnt b push..

im greatful for da memories we had together...
and boy...we nearly lasted 4 years!
and b4 tis..i wasnt da type to stick to a guy...
im alws da gurl who dates a guy for a short period..
as in aft a month...we'll break
HAH!yeah dats me...

singlehood is a new life for me...
as i wasnt in dat group for like 5 years d..
but SO WAT???!!im still a ROCKSTAR...xD

my great guy is still waiting for me out der...all i gota do is search and i'll find him...lol!

to tell u all da truth..i still cry...its da way for me to let it all out..
and thx to da sermon last nite...
it told me..i gota b strong as a ROCK!i ned to be tough to face da world...
and i ned to bless da ppl who hurts me in my life...
cuz dats da oni way i'll find happiness in life..

let it go...
im letting u go...
its da best for both of us......
but im still gona annoy u as ur still my fren (^^)

HAPPY EASTER MY DEAR FRENZZ!!!