Sunday 10 November 2013

Live Your Life

"Everybody wanna hold your hand
Everybody wanna shine that bright
Everybody wanna say they can
Everybody wanna live your life

Everybody wanna talk like you
Only wanna do the things you do
'Cause they always gonna turn out right
Everybody wanna live your life"

Mika - Live Your  Life


At times i feel like giving up on everything.
Life is just too hectic to live in
No time for dramas , no time to relax.
Classes twice , sometimes trice per-week ;
Exams around the corner ;
Organizing church camp ;
OT for work purpose ; 
Gosh , i feel like i've hit the ceiling.

I've got no room to just breathe~
Even had to visit the doc cuz breathing was hard
Chest tight ; even sitting down makes me gasp for air.

Why oh Why do i take up so much burden for myself?
Would you live in my shoes for a week?
Driving to class takes an hour to reach!
not to mention class is straight after working hours.

Yes i do complain , 
but what to do?
Hardships in the beginning might bear fruits later on in life.
Well i do hope so!
if not im doing it for nothing.

Throwing tantrums gets me no where,
complaints too.

Well , just gota suck it up & ; keep moving on!



Sunday 13 October 2013

承诺

什么承诺?

Should a person believe?

Or should they not?

 Promises made , however it turns out to be lies.

Shall one be contented with the promises?? 

In fact , i've tried hard to believe but in vain

Why? Izit that hard to be a guy?

Or my fate is to meet some jerks filled with lies?

Is this the game for you guys?

Relationship meant like a trash?

To ignore the person who's mad?

I dislike to be treated like a trash ,

to be ignored when i'm mad ,

to be a game when you're bored.

One Bad Thing shall cover 10 Good things you've done

by ignoring me.

Do You Know that i feel left out?

Do You Know that you are Unfair?

Loneliness kills & i totally hate that the most ,

 but you'll totally ignore it.

Do you even know that i cudn't fully trust you?

Too bad , WHAT DO YOU KNOW?!

 


Friday 23 August 2013

The Return

The prodigal writer returns.......

=)
so much to say but too lazy to write!
can i just have a gadget which capture my voice
& write it down for me?
cz my brain works faster than my fingers.

hmmm..rant?
nope , much happy with work.
Freshie alwys gets harsh comments at their work ,
it's just so normal
but im lucky to have been put at a place 
where surrounding are much helpful to guide me through.

This month ; still going on ; will go on 
till godknowswhen my supervisor will be back.
She had some emergency so she had to take leave from work
so , yes , i gota handle all by myself
=/
Well not all , at least i have to review it with my manager
before sending my work out.
But its usually , i do the work , hand it over to my supervisor
with explanation & she would review it with the manager.
However now , i gota go straight to the manager.
No , he's not bad at all
it is just dat he is a perfectionist.
So , yeah , you get it?!
But he's willing to teach & guide me , 
i take that as a private consultation/training for the job.
It's real tiring to answer the *whys*

You think this is bad? Having to review with manager?
Think about , i gota deal with other dept's manager/dept head / Overseas US team!!
You have no idea that i had to crack my head each time i sent out emails
Using *Big Fat Huge Words* each time , kills the brain.
HAhahahaha~
cz i din't wana look tiny.
They'll be like *Who are you to decide?* My post is higher leh!
But nah , they are not like dat.
I just use Gigantic words to look smart , that's all
=D
1 sentence i wrote :
*Customization will raise questionable speculation on our company's integrity*
HAAH , okay , well , not that huge words anyway.
But seriously , its not that my english is so Geng anyway.
Just wana appear as Professional in my job.

Everytime my line phone rings, 
I'll be Shiiit! Who's This?!
Faster check the address book as they have the names & position of the person.
Why?! Why this Unit Manager is calling me?
Oh no~ have i done wrong??
>.<
hahahahah~
Dramaqueen aren't i?
Im glad , though they maybe in a higher position,
they are humble enough to teach me.
For that , im Blessed!

Don't say my Director,
He may have taught us valuable experiences,
however , he is quick to put one down too.
For me , i feel as a leader / a senior / anyone elder ,
The Most important thing to do is motivate your subordinates.
Without them , you are nothing ,
without you , they are nothing.
Treat others like how you would want to be treated by the upper management.
One bad apple , destroys the whole basket of apples.

I've wrote much 
but still loads to go!!!

hmmm....another
i find it hard to share my inner thoughts with ppl.
Sharing at Church makes it even worst.
I don't wana be the talk of the *town*
for me sharing in church is forbidden as it shed light to the real you
& ppl will take that and hack you back from the back.
I find it hard to trust ppl at church , 
to me , some are culprits.
Self proclaim holy of holyness person.
Once you let a tiger in , it won't be tame.

Skeptical coz i had this in the past.
Members stab members
well , i know working world is also like that
No?

The one & only person who really knows me is
Abba Father Above
=)
I find it hard to trust , 
total open up myself to a person.
As they may not know the real feeling cz they are not walking in my shoes.
 Therefore , different probs , i share with diff ppl.
It is also awesome to have different ppl in my life.

TRUST is a huge thing for me,
gota gain it , i won't just hand it over to you.

 Why other ppl could get all so famous by writting blog only , 
why cudnt i?!
hahaha~
Aint pretty , aint bitchy , aint fashionista , aint socialist
just an ordinary girl who's writting
to improve on her writing skills.
Actually , i think , blogging really helps
It helps in ways that you can actually write down important info to get through another person by email.
You should read emails by the team in Xiamen & Hangzhou.
Can make a person faint!
>.<
Direct translation. Bahahaha~ sorry if i offended any one
My english aint that good tho , i alwys get corrected for my grammar.
 

Wednesday 20 March 2013

Risen ~

Woah what a record!
The last i blogged was last year august.
Its been half a year rite?
=)


Minutes , hours , days , weeks , months
passes by *phew* in a snap of the fingers.

Things happened so fast 
till its hard to just take a deep breath.

Landed a contract job , 
wishing it would change to permanent after 3 months
but it didn't.
As a matter of fact , 
i just got the offer TODAY! 
WWWEeeeeee~!
*Overjoyed!*
it feels like an achievement ,
as its my 1st permanent job ever.
One day when im old ,
i shall look back to this very day.
Which forms my career path for my near future.

Well audit was my 1st real job ,
but i hated it.
Gave up after only a month of torture
as i cudnt take the scolding from my senior bitch.
It made me phobia towards auditors , 
bad character , no patience , full of anger.

Took out audit from the list 
& search for offices instead as admin or finance post.
Little did i know there is such job on earth called costing.
Went in without any know-hows or anything about the job.
However , for the past 6 months
i've learned much. 
Learned about the manufacturing industry ,
& how a factory works.
It's really interesting. 

There's so many levels in the management , 
therefore politics are much played in there.
& i've learned all you gota do is play neutral , 
trust no one but yourself.

Costing ; so much to learn ; so much to know.
Its out from my comfort zone of accounts
but its an awesome path to learn from the start.
How things starts & done.

Number & figures are important ;
so as the components ; no. of chips ; hours working on a board
means much to us too.
im getting the best of both worlds as i could say.
Keeping the cost low ; not foregoing any cost incurred later on.
We gota go down to the production line
to see ; to learn how the engineers does it.
Whether izit according to what we are quoting ; or
we are quoting on a discount.
So basically , we gota know what engineers know.
AWESOME rite? 
so i dun need to get a cert to be an engineer. 
AHAHA~

For now , i love what i am doing.
Though its stressful & tiring ,
at times wrong quotes would get the company into bankruptcy.
I shall stay till i could find another opening in other fields.
Would love to learn more while i still could.
Just to see what i really want to do
for the rest of my life as a human being
=)

That's all for now,
Kudos~!