Wednesday 31 March 2010

& well at least u've answered...

hello Mr Blog,
i've abandon u long enuf
so i shall update u on da current things dat r goin on.

a BIG THANK YOU GOD
for answering our prayers
Good news all da way ; good news everday
=)

been a resident in a unique hotel called *hospital*
NO NOT ME
im NOT da patient
im as Healthy as a FAT COW
xD

well my life is practically doin nothing
& to oni take care of her
& to find fud for myself
hehehe..
much like this place tho
aircond 24hrs!!!

FINALS in 2 weeks time
3 papers & i've been oni studyin 1 paper
yeah life sucks at times
* fingers cross *
i reali ned ur help this time GOD!!!
help me help me to get everythin in my head.

thk god ders WIFI here
=D

Friday 26 March 2010

big letter D

DEPRESSION
is da accurate mood im in right now.
SPEECHLESS
on things dat are happening around me
HOPE & FAITH
dat a miracle will happen

Thursday 25 March 2010

tong ku de guo chen...

im gona write this post in mandrin
but my com dun hav da software
so im writtin it in pinyin~
mei xiang dao
wo ma you le ta
na ke *ta* shi bu yong yi de li kai
yi jing kai le dao ye bu neng na zhou *ta*
xian zai wo men zhi hao den
~ Shang Di ah~
wei she mo ni bu ting ne?
ni ting bu dao wo men de dao gao?
hai shi ni yao wo men den dai?
den dao wo men yao fang qi de shi hou
ni cai yao bang mang ne?
wo ren wu ke ren le
wo yi jing kan bu xia qu le
zai yi chi wo dui ni hen shi bai
ni gen wo shuo
ru guo wo you zai xin ni
ni hui na zhou *ta* mah?
seriously ,
u fail me everytime
wen i start believing in you.
Y do u hav to torture my family like tis?
SHIT happens still tho he had follow ur footsteps
how long more
u wan us to face crisis like this?
xin hao tong
wo mei hua neng jiang le
ru guo wo zai ting dao
*shang di* zhe ge zhi
wo hui bu xin ren ta!!

Saturday 20 March 2010

a great book cover judge

ppl used to say
do not judge a book by its cover rite?
however sometimes da cover potrays da person
im not a lover of innocent looking ppl
cz dey'll end up worst than a murderer
thru da walks of life
i've learn much from it
& now i cud judge a book
by its cover itself sometimes
for example
there is this gal who looks pleasant & innocent
talks sweetly to older ppl
but react differently to gals her age
& talks nicely to GUYS her age
from da start im skeptical of befriending her
so i did not talk to her
nor even ask her name
i stand back to observe her ways
at da end
i was rite from da start
she's a totaly BITCH!!
HAH~!
i tink she sees me as a threat from da start
for talking to guys dat she's shy to talk to
but adds them in Facebook!!
muahahaha~
u think im dumb miss innocent gal?!
so my dear frenz,
BEWARE of this type of ppl around u
open ur eyes wen u meet new ppl
a BITCH is easy to spot
wana knw hw?
ASK ME!
=)

Tuesday 16 March 2010

HOLY camp ~

i tink this is da HOLY-IEST camp i've ever go to
filled with pastors & deaconess
(>.<)
activities are full of talks
early prayer in da early morning
compline * sumthing like prayer* b4 sleep
(@.@)
yeah i guess u knw how i feel being here
BORED!!!!
totaly bored
im a loner here
as all da kids are younger than me
so i dun *click* with
today i got up for breakfast
& wen back to sleep aft dat
got up juz in time for lunch
muahahaha~!!!
im having a time of time
being alone most of da time
tho i enjoy it
=)
waiting to get back hm on wed.

Saturday 13 March 2010

ONE is enuf

ppl thinks dat pastor's kids
have nothing better off to do
dey tot we r too free & plain lazy
BECAUSE i dont attend every services in church
there is 5 services including
Arau , Perlis's church
its 300km away
u tink i wana go?
DUUHH~ of course not.

Yes , pastor's kids
SO WAT?!
we are not da pastor
we are juz buy 1 free 4 plus my mum
pastoring is his job not ours
we are juz a package


i'll be damn mad weneva ppl talk on this point
walk away is how i control my temper
i go for oni ENGLISH service
happy or not
it wont change anything.


okay i cut my hair
bob head ~ u call it
i've been called a lil school gal ever since
so Ms SARA i dont look older than u ady!!
xD


but of course

sometimes i do miss my long hair
Monday 15 - 17th march
Clergy Retreat @ Bayu Beach Resort
im inlucded~brain washed by mum
(@.@)
its an ALL Pastor's of west m'sia & family camp
activities are full of SESSIONS!!
gosh~& no is der to cure my boredom
frenz i knw is not goin
strangers i dun knw is goin
hehehe...
yeah im crapping
a good place to talk crap & complain

btw ,
RAJA PETRA no matter where u are
i support u~!!!!!
how i wish ur in the politics
or ur da head of da police
or even beta
da prime minister
(>.<)
ppl working in newspaper line wud be bored to death
everyday writting bout politics stuff
we readers is dying of boredom~

Monday 8 March 2010

& by HIS stripes , she's heal

mum currently under a tough time
& not to forget it does affect us too
wen for operation this aftnun
took out da lump at da breast area
& send it to KL to test
results will be out in a few weeks
waiting was da killer part
as we dun knw wats happening in der
& me din sleep da nite b4
was so so so tired
mum is alone in hosp now
as we cudnt stay back der
owh Tiredness~
ciaoz~

Saturday 6 March 2010

Fake smile

hav u ever fell in love?
hav u ever care for some1?
some1 thats so special
who u cudnt miss a day witout talking to

Sitting here
thinking bout it
a smile brigthens up my face
unfortunately
it was oni a fake.

i used to tink love was everything
it givs u life
givs u energy to live on
thru thick & thin
a story to go on to keep me alive
however i was wrong

its pain wen it strikes
it cud kill ur heart
or even take away ur soul
ur heart will stop funtionin wen da soul is dead

love was meant to be sweet,caring
& be the other half to complete one another
however sometimes i feel
love chokes us to death
being in love is like diggin ur own grave
or even bringing ur death's date sooner

cries & arguements became frequent
mending the broken heart became frequent too
but the girl hav to alws mend her own heart
& stand up alone in tis dark big place call reality

guys are alws thinkin they r da boss
thinkin gurls are like living robots
live according to their rule & commands
if u do so
dey'll say
*i love u*
and der it goes
the gurl feels contented.

now it comes back to the 1st question
have u ever fell in love?
shud love be like this?
shud it oni be a 1 way thing?
is this the way that its said ur showing love?

the gurl cries alone in the dark
finding for sumthing to grip
so she cud stil hang on in this world
if there wer a soul for her to lean on & cry
she'll be glad

living in this cruel world call reality
its happy , sad , sweet , bitter
ders ups & downs
luck wudnt alws be on ur side

talking to the ones she luv wudnt help a bit
cz she's alws a loner & keeps everythin to herself
talking to da other half wudnt help a bit too
cz da other half wudnt listen & shuts her off

so tell me
how cud i help this gal to live on?
every1 is imperfect in this world
if there is a soul which is perfect
lead me , lead me to it~

enuf

i had it~
enuf
its too much dat i cud bare

im no slut
im juz an unperfect gurl.

Monday 1 March 2010

Curse u bastard...

the bastard im referring to is
my dad's oldest Brother.

yeap lets call him bastard
cuz he is
evn his own family disowned him~!!

wen i was a child
i hate him alot
cuz weneva i call him
he will act arrogantly.
* Eldest so wat?!*
he is a piece of SHIT
he is USELESS
CHEATER
LIAR
DICKHEAD
SNOBBISH
anything bad characteristic
is HIM.
he owns them all.

he has a wife
but he aso hav a 2nd wife
besides he stil hav other flings
with other woman
doesnt dat prove he is a JERK?!
his children
1 is married
while another now turns to be like him
a drug addict
a womaniser

wen my granny pass away
we had to keep da secret
dat he has a 2nd wife
& da 2nd wife was with is during da funeral
we kids were forbid to call her
as his 2nd wife

so now da question
why i HATE him so F***king much?
bare with my swearing
as he has done a permenant damage
on my DAD
aft my bro was born
my dad was accused for taking granny's hse grant
but he didnt
da BASTARD did not find out da truth
he straight BASH up my dad
& cause him to be half deaf now
da grant was taken by their uncle
NOW u see
HOW STUPID IS TIS BASTARD?!

now his family chase him out of hse
sometimes my parents see him around SP town
but if i see him 1 day
i wont even call him
or if im daring enuf
to spit at him right at his face
curse him to death
hah~!
yeah im mean
so wat?
not as mean as wat he did!!
if i ever see him begging one day
i'll laugh my ass off infront of him
sucker who ask u to be so arrogant wen u had da chance?
if i cud
KICK HIM IN DA BALLS~~!
hell yea~
sweetest revenge
xD

hope his ears feel itchy whole nite
as im cursing him
(^^)

He listens

Sometimes
i feel dogs know wat
we humans are saying
for example wat happen to me

Parents wen for bible study
so i was left alone at home
b4 dey wen
my dad look at Patchy & said
*u take care of jie jie k*
& off they wen
i wen into my room
while patch is off his chain in da hse
i was in my room online
& wen i wantd to go to da kitchen
i open my door
& der my patchy lying on da floor
with his eyes on my door
(^^)
he has neva sat infront of my room
i wen to da kitchen he followed me
wen i came into my room
he came sniffing around my room
hehehe...
he is juz super CUTE!

i dun mind being home alone
with my Patchy & Princey
=)

btw , i've cut my hair
its No longer LONG
its now SHORT
thx boyfie for taking me for a haircut
(^^)
dun tell me u regret taking me der
hehehehe...
=p