*yawns*

ONE down....

ONE more to go....

YYYYESSSSSSHHH!!!!

Management accounting nearly killed me...i got so frustrated studyin dat stupid subject...(@.@)...but thk god i studied da rite chapter and da questions came out as wat i studied!

*heart pumping hard*...as i walk towards da hall..searching for familiar faces...and yeah i found a few classmates...some wer still readin da notes..n i felt like a lazy pig cuz i wasnt studyin anymore..it was 15 more mins to 9am...therefore i decide not to study as my brain wont go blank once i go into da hall. Before i open da question paper..i was telling God plz make it easy..plz let those chapters dat i have studied come out..and *TA DA*!!heheh...as wat i asked for...lalalala~!i din read da questions yet but i took out my pencil and start writing da formulas before i forget them...hehehe...as i handle my paper to da lecturer..i had a smile on my face...*owh NO*actually i was smilling thru out da exam..cuz i knw how to do..hehehe..im weird *SO WAT??!*...xD

next up is Financial Accounting Practice on thurs...owh yeah i knw i suck as an accountant..hehehe..i failed both accounting sub.. x)

&& mah JOYCEEEE and TERRENCE...thx for making my day yday!!!thk u for dropping by juz to make sure im alrite...*im TOUCH!* ...i was down b4 u came..but wen i got ur call..hahaha...i immediately turned HYPER!...xD...yday was totaly a boredom until u two juz brighten up my day.

HOWEVER..i cudnt be too happy yet...cuz i hav one more paper to go..

(>.<)

*Yawns*

slept for oni 4 hours last nite..

brain din wana take a rest..

till1 sumthing i finally doze off...

4am..

my alarm rang...

i keep snoozing til its 5am..

hehehehe..

so reluctant to get up..but i juz hav to

shall go hav my piggy nap now..

(^^)

She predicts..

dat she will fall sick SOON....

knw y?
cuz i dun well since yday..my body is like so wrong..i get tired out from juz climbing up da staircase in da hse...and i got no appetite to eat..juz dun feel like eating (>.<)

plz God dun let me fall sick yet...i hav to face my battle next week with my FINALS!!aft my battle...i dun mind getting sick

it was raining da whole aftnun at Penang...it wud be so so so nice to sleep but i was out at Sg Dua's McD studyin...Joyce and Terrence wer der to accompany me..and to teach da stupid me xD

there wer two pervert guys beside our table..dey kept lookin at our table..and wen my fren joyce wen to refill da coke..they look at her and smile..and kept staring at her while she walks to da counter to refill and walk back...PERVERTS!!! GET A LIFE la u two...

for today..tomolo and da day aft...i gota seriously get into my books d...but im still LAZY!!!...frenz having their freedom d..and me?still stuck with BOOKS!...

Me gets reali lonely sometimes...any1 willing to be my victim?? xD
im getting beta d..so ya'll dun ned to worry d..
i dun cry..i dun go emo suddenly...
training to be tough and dats my goal!
and am i flirting?nop im not...but i cudnt deny that i go out with my guy frenz often these days..hehe...fully utilising my freedom?hahaha...probably
am gona stay single till i find a TRUE guy..a guy who loves me as much as i love him..wana takes things slowly aft tis...cuz i dun wana repeat wat i had gone thru ady..its juz too pain.
still misses him? dat i cudnt deny...
but its only SOMETIMES...
i got lots more stuff for my brain to tink of..
next week will gona be a fun Fun FUN week for me aft my finals!!!!!
EKEKEKEKEKE...will spill out da info later *grin*..
so watch out...

xD

Random pics

tis pic wer taken last week..da whole morning was raining..and as i walk towards da coll's canteen to meet up with joyce and li ying..i saw da hills wer so misty..nice eh?

Now every Thurs is my exercise day!i'll tag along with my bro to USM to play squash with his frenz..dey wer kind enuf to teach me (^^) but i stil suck at it...however hav improve much!as in not letting da ball hit me...hehehe..owh damn pain wen it hits da body..

retarded bro...u dun hav to look ugly to make me look pretty...ekekekek xD

USM's tracks...it was my world wen i was young...its da place where i came for running competition and my training ground...i'll spent like 1 whole week here for running competition..and alws b4 da competition..we'll spent weeks for training here.and da best part..we get to skip class! ekekeke...dat was b4 i shifted to kl..if i dint shift i might join da Penang's runners team..(>.<)..dreams crashed wen my teacher call me up dat i got chosen but i gota tell her dat i'm leaving to kl d...*sob sob*..aft goin kl..i join da kl's school running team...HAH!

PICS OF my week...*i mean last weeek* (^^)

our tuesday morning started here...DALAT INTERNATIONAL SKOL..joyce came and fetch me and thats wen i got to know Terrence aka baby voice...lol!this two teams are gals...din reali njoy much watchin tis game..cuz its not BOYS PLAYING!hehehehe...xD

aft camwhoring in dalat..we had to go for our last COMP LAB class...

i din care wat is da lecturer is teaching...i juz kept snapping pics all da way thru her class...cuz i HATE her!..everyday with her sour face... i hav neva see her smile...

another 1...xp

our last pic together in da LAB...tho we wont miss it..cuz we'll b der still for da next 3 years..

me joyce nisa veron

DA NEXT DAY......

i brot my eyeliner to coll..and my luvly makeup artist draw for me!hehehe...

moi and my piku LI YING!

aft dat NISA cudnt resist me...she starts kissing me!!and da usual me..bcame shy...i try to back off...

but then...aiya..i let her kiss me ba..since i wud not be receiving her kisses for a month!!!...di dun mind being tot of as a lesbo..cuz she's HOT!too bad..unavailable d..xD

wen da lecture starts..i wer super duperly rajin...but aft dat.....

happily enjoying my lollipop!wahakaka....

for lunch we ended up in gurney as usual..haihz..sick of dat place d...but wat to do..da nearest mall to our coll...wen to Kim Gary to eat...*korean noodles...*

at nite..we wen coffee island!a last minute plan...sry VERON..we 4gotten to ask u out..our bad..
owh tis drink...u may neva wana touch..its eeeeewwww...cuz we mix super much stuff in der...soya sauce...salt...pepper...sugar...milk...tea...UGH!i knw we r sickos...but we r FUN! XD

at gurney...moi...joyce...liying
however suddenly i became emo...

but i still camwhore aft dat...heheheh...=)

LUVS LIFE!

shall continue in another post...*soon

Single and available (^^)

*caught him as a hostage*

ekekekeke.....

nahla...xD

wud i be so cruel?

Well well....

i knew him thru facebook and guess wad?

he has a band called *asnaivekiller*

for my luvly frenz living in kl...

u cud go check this band up as dey alws hav gigs in kl!

sadly..none in penang

=(

Last but not least...

GALS!!!LISTEN UP...

he is SINGLE n AVAILABLE...

hehehe...

so if ya'll interested...

giv me ur name and contact..

okies?

xD

* see how good am i promoting u in my luvly blog*

(^^)

hhehehee.....

owh yeah...

his name is JOSEPH aka JOE

TODAY...had super fun chatting in msn...

cuz 5 HOT CHICKS chatting in a window...

hehe...

da 5 HOT CHICKS are...

JOYCE , MOI , NISA , VERON and AH YONG..

owh every1 is crazy in der...

dey seem to lost their mind d aft all those books cramp into a brain

and now suddenly free from books!

im da oni 1 having finals...

haihz..how sad..

BUT...am happy to continue mah adv diploma with da HOT+LAME gals..

hehehe...xD

except for Ah Yong...she's goin kl d..

nvm...we 4 still cud ROCK TARC PENANG!

YAY!

LUV U ALL TO BITS!!

<3>

Song speaks..

哪里有彩虹告诉我
Tell me where the rainbow is
能不能把我的愿望还给我
Could you give back my wish?
为什么天这么安静
Why is the sky so quiet?
所有的云都跑到我这里
All of the clouds are running to me
有没有口罩一个给我
Is there a mask for me?
释怀说了太多就成真不了
Recalling too much of the past words can accomplish nothing
也许时间是一种解药
Perhaps time is a kind of antidote
也是我现在正服下的毒药
And aso the 1st poison im taking now


看不见你的笑 我怎么睡得着
I could not see your smile , how could i sleep well?
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
Your silhouette is so close to me , yet i cannot embrace it
没有地球太阳还是会绕
Without earth , the sun can stil circle around
没有理由我也能自己走
Without reasons , i still could walk alone
你要离开 我知道很简单
You want to go away , i know dat is very easy
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
You said dependence is our obstacle
就算放开 那能不能别没收我的爱
Even if we break up , but couldnt you receive my love
当作我最后才明白
Assuming im the last to understand

this song is by Jay Chou..i bet u guys knw it..i juz found out dat da lyrics describes wat i wana say..


OWH yeah...yday i did a bad thing..its like against da law..muahaha....
yday i drove da car back from butterworth to sp without any IC and LICENSE!ekekek...i totaly din bring my purse with me...and da best part...i KNEW IT!but i din tell my parents..i juz took da keys and drove..and da usual me speed more than da speed limit...LALALALA~! xD

i LOVE AUTO and HATES MANUAL!

i wana blog bout wat i did da last whole week..but my pics are all in penang..so bare with me...will blog bout it once im back in penang and dat is on thurs (>.<)
THXY to mah JOYCEEEE...Terrence baby voice and Li Ying mah PIKU!!!u made my week...to NISA and VERON..once i finis my finals...we go out k?!

i MISS YOU my LI YING PIKU!!!!!aawww...i 4get to hug u dat day b4 u leave ='(
muz come back and visit us weneva ur free k...if not we r goin to parit buntar to scold U! starting now...im loosing a great camwhore partner d.*sob sob*

one last time

im not sad...im not crying...
but i juz hav dat down feeling in me weneva i sit and think..

i wen and google a song called 最后一次..*Last Time*..
written by a 17yr old gal before she passed away..
tis songs is written for her bf...
and her lyric goes...

*Before i close my eyes for da last time
i wana tell u dat I Love You
i cudnt let u go while u hug me
there is still so much dat i wana tell u
im tryin my best not to shut my eyes
because if i do so..i may neva see u again
i cudnt be by ur side anymore but dun forget
da promise u made to me dat u'll live on happily on earth

my heart ady wen to a place far away from u
i cudnt watch da sunrise with u anymore cudnt wait with u till da sun comes up
its not easy to erase da memories we had together
our lives on earth is God's will..therefore do not be too sad*

meaningful rite da words?...hope her bfs lives well.

and before i totaly forget u from my system..
i wana juz say out for da last time..
i sincerely truly did Love YOU for da almost 4 years together.
hope we cud remain as best of frenz...cuz u know me way too well d and vice versa


crying is my weakness...once i start to cry...its hard to control it to stop
=(
i'll be emo wen i hear da song *hard for me to say im sorry* by boys to men..dat day wen beach with my fren...he put dat song on..n i almost cried!GAWD!i ned to control my feelings...like he said..its not MY song..i dun ned to cry weneva i hear it...but da reason bhind it is..me and HIM liked dat song b4..dats y im sad wen i listen to dat

Failures of Life..

in Life...
der is much failures...
RELATIONSHIP....STUDIES....WORK.....etc
*and i knw how much pain it will affect a person*

however...some ppl may fall deep into depression but some will not
some will choose to end their lives as they tot dat is da easiest way to end da pain..
actually..endin ur life is not da easiest way...
knw y?cuz ur actually making ur other love ones fall into da same depression for da lost..
therefore...for u ppl who tinks dat ur a failure..
SUCK IT UP & MOVE ON!

i cud do it...so do u...
der is nothing impossible...
u may find it impossible to get rid of da pain at 1st...
but aft sometime..u try to control ur feelings...it'll work
tho u wont 100% be happy..but at least ur trying ur best to 4get da pain.

im able to control myself ady..and most of all...im able to control my crying habbit!
YES!JESS u did a great job *claps for myself*..
tho i may still b sad..but not as bad as previous weeks d..
im gettin over it..im startin a new singlehood life
i dun hate him...im not angry wit him
but i still miss him sometimes..

actually its funny wen ur love 1 hurt u so much...
but u neva hate them at da end..
y izzit so??!!
probably da love u had for him/her had covered da hate in us
am i rite?

i juz hope he is fine...
happy with his life rite now..
and wana wish him all da best in life...
probably he'll find a better gal for himself
cuz we both r not destined to be 2gather.

MOVING ON...
da last whole week i was packed with activities everyday...
dats y i din hav da time to blog...
shall blog bout wat da crazy stuff i did in da next post...or next next next post...
HEHEHEHEH...
shall be having FINALS on 27th and 30th tis month...
GAWD!!!wish me luck!
(^^)

M.E.N.D.I.N.G

who cud mend tis broken heart of mine?

now i knw y der is so many ppl commit suicide cuz of

L.O.V.E

it hurts to da max

Physical pain its like a pinch on our flesh

but da mental and heart pain its like neva endin

it will neva go..

it'll stay in our heart for as long as ever

so neva look down on

L.O.V.E

cuz it'll cause da most massive PAIN in life!

i need some hope..

to bring happiness into my daily life..

to put a smile on my face..

to 4get everything in one go..

to juz realise dat everything will be alrite...

i still miss him with da lil pieces of my broken heart.

D.O.W.N

my mouth say let him go...
my heart said okay i will let him go...but..its not lettin go!!!
UGH!

today...i got home late
cuz i wana spent more time outside than bein at home
aft rching home and done with bathing...i sat on da com table and start to ponder of stuff
stuff btween me and him..and my itchy fingers start to msg him
gettin his replies made me cry all over again like a wacko..
dint stop crying till i fell asleep..wen i got up der r still tears flowing down
got up and rush to da computer..search for ppl to talk to as i dun wana cry nymore

eyes turning to a gold fish...heart turning numb...or i shall say its ady numb!

thk god i had frenz dat are alws available for me to cling on...
so for now i shall hang on to them...till i get myself 100% back on my feet to flirt around again
*donkey...i'll go kl if my dad let me k..then u bawa i pi clubbing!u said so ah!*

tomolo goin redbox again!hehehe..my current fav place..
tis video is taken last week...i wen redbox wit another fren of mine
GAH!!!in so into karaoke...im dead...
im seeing my $$ flying away fast....(^^)
sry ya da video taken da wrong way...ekekek..

saying BYE to EMO

~EMO no more~
i told myself...

i need to freaking get on with life and put da past bhind...
yeah..i may still be sad at times...
but i juz need time...
loads of it to heal da heart...

if there is a will...there is a way..
if we were meant to be together..then time will be our guide...
if its da opposite...then i gotta move on!

i came to a point wer i gota accept da fact..
2 weeks wer seriously very long for me...
its like living in hell inside me...but on da surface im still me...
i smile i laugh i joke...

every relationship doesnt end like those happy ending fairytales..
its not da same as u watch in those dramas everyday...
in reality...relatinships r hard to maintain

i breakup lotsa times...but tis time is my worst..
probably cuz we strive so much for tis relationship
and it ended up not working...

well~...one doesnt work...does not mean other future relationship doesnt work rite?

im still close to him...as frenz
havin a fren is betta than havin an enemy rite?
tho it hurts wen i come to tink of it...
things like tis cudnt b push..

im greatful for da memories we had together...
and boy...we nearly lasted 4 years!
and b4 tis..i wasnt da type to stick to a guy...
im alws da gurl who dates a guy for a short period..
as in aft a month...we'll break
HAH!yeah dats me...

singlehood is a new life for me...
as i wasnt in dat group for like 5 years d..
but SO WAT???!!im still a ROCKSTAR...xD

my great guy is still waiting for me out der...all i gota do is search and i'll find him...lol!

to tell u all da truth..i still cry...its da way for me to let it all out..
and thx to da sermon last nite...
it told me..i gota b strong as a ROCK!i ned to be tough to face da world...
and i ned to bless da ppl who hurts me in my life...
cuz dats da oni way i'll find happiness in life..

let it go...
im letting u go...
its da best for both of us......
but im still gona annoy u as ur still my fren (^^)

HAPPY EASTER MY DEAR FRENZZ!!!

Things happen for a reason...

U'll take ur WHOLE LIFE to know a person..

but it takes seconds to hurt someone..

My life did change alot..and i mean ALOT!!

hav to learn to stand alone...

hav to learn to face da darkness at nite alone..

hav to learn to be tough as a rock...

true enough single life is more happening...

but u got no special one to love and be loved back..

no one to reali hav a heart to heart talk to..

to share da bad and happy news together..

my hp is quiet these days..

but i dun knw y my credit finis faster!

LOL..wat an opposite.

i go out more often these days...

im hardly at home..

cuz i hate bein at home and tink bout emo stuff

i knw finals is coming..

and i seriously gota kick my ass to STUDY!!

im feelin beta these days...

gettin back to my feet d..

tho i may still be sad at times wen i tink of it..

but dats da experience we ned for us to grow up and mature

frenz says dat im reali tough..

i cud be so optimistic so so fast aft wat had happen..

for them..evn aft a month dey r stil so emo like da 1st day of their breakup

all i cud say is...

thx to u guy's support and advice..

actually im still very sad...

juz dat i dun show it infront of u guys..

i keep it all in me..

i act im alrite to show u guys dat u dont ned to worry bout me...

juz wana thk a few great frenz dat hav been supportin me and being my great advisors..

SOTONG..
juz wana thk u for bein so concern bout me wen u still hav ur own probs...u did ur best to help me thru da phone..and i appreciate it ALOT!and i mean it....

JOYCE...
thx for ur advice and ur time for making sure dat im alrite tho u got ur own probs too....and for temanin me alws (^^)much much THX!!

GILSON...
u r a sicko!...but a great fren...tho ur mouth is like a poison...u alws make sure im alrite everyday...and and..a great kaki for karaoke and hiking...LOL! and STOP saying 'apong'!!!GAH!!say it again and i'll smack u!

NISA
thx gal for giving me advice..and talking thru my brain and make me wake up from my emo-ness...thx for alws being so caring...

TIMMY..
thx for dat song..hehe...and aso ur care...i'll b alrite dude..worry more bout urself k? =)

JT...
thx for remindin me of dat song gal! "footprints in the sand"...as i sing it...it calms me down..at least i knw der is someone up der for me...

Jordan...
thx for ur care...i'll cheer up dude...dun worry.. xD

i feel like


i wana RUNAWAY from home...

i wana get away from this CRUEL WORLD...

im so tiny dats y im alws BULLIED my WHOLE LIFE!

GOD DAMN U!!! Y da HECK THIS WORLD IS SO UNFAIR???!!!!

ppl are juz so blind to see dat im so freaking sad d and dey juz wana add anger into ME!

I DUN GIV A DAMN IF U SCOLD ME EVERY FREAKING DAY
I DUN GIV A DAMN IF U HIT ME EVERY SINGLE TIME U SCOLD ME...
IF U DARE...TAKE DA KNIFE N KILL ME!!!
cudnt stand staying in tis BULLSHIT house...!
U RULE CUZ UR OLD...
U RULE CUZ IM YOUNG...


TOO BAD...

I WONT BE PATIENCE NYMORE...
I"LL FIGHT BACK.
u beta watch out!

E.M.P.T.Y

being Emo is my current hobby...faking a smile is a lil white lie from me...da pain in me isnt goin away...no matter how much i put effort in forgettin him...i stil fail every single time.

lil did i knw...i juz drop a few tears last nite before i doze off..im kinda suprise with myself...i wana cry but i juz cudnt cry it out..its like in me...and dat hurts more...

im alws sad weneva i fail to control my brain...evn tho im in class...i cud sit there like a statue like nothing is wrong with me but actually i reali wana cry cuz its so pain deep inside

i cudnt concentrate...i cudnt stop my brain..how i wish i cud juz lost my memory by snappin my fingers.

tho my frenz calls me..sms me..talk to me in msn every single nite..da pain in me is not reducing..till wen will this pain cling on to my heart?

i go out often these days..cuz i dun wana stuck at home alone...da loneliness kills..at least bein out with frenz..it makes me a lil more happy

frenz says dat im using way too much of my freedom cuz i alws go out with guys...but too bad...seriously i wont fall for them...cuz i stil have feelings for him and dey knw it

i neva see tis coming our way..i tot we wer happy bein together..but things changed..

at 1st i was lost...super lost..like a lil puppy bein let in da street alone...i lost my pillar...i lost a place of comfort..

but frenz made me realise...dat i wasnt all alone in da street at nite...if i wan somebody to talk to..i juz ned to send a msg and dey'll come to my rescue..i thk god for them but i dun wana cling too much on them

aft a few days i brokeup...my bestie aso did da same thing...so now we r both single...but somebody is coming her way...*dun blow away ur chance gal!*

ppl say i'll find a new guy to cling to soon...but sry..im not ready for another heart break...opening ur heart for a new relationship is actually taking a risk to hurt ur heart.

HEARTACHE and SADNESS..plz flee away from me ASAP...i cudnt endure it much longer cuz der is a limit to how much pain i cud face

march hav gone by slowly...and april has juz begun..its his bday next tues..shud i stay in contact with him?or shud i wish him and leave him alone forever?..i dun knw wat to do..

i wana run away from this reality...and be alone at a place i cud find happiness...i seriously wana be back to myself again...i wana get back on my feet asap...i wana leave those memories as my history...

i juz cudnt deny da fact dat i stil miss him super lot
sry i cudnt promise dat i wont cry anymore
sry i cudnt promise dat i wont fake a smile amymore
sry i cudnt promise dat i wont tink bout him
and sry i cudnt promise dat i wont be sad

juz to release my tots...

This is called 50 first reactions... Type what comes to your mind first whenever you hear these 50 words. Don't think ad don't go back and change. Doesn't matter how random just type it!



1) Beer : too bitter...i wonder how cud those ppl drink it like water!! (>.<)
2) Food : nothing makes me wana eat rite now..juz hav two bites of a french toast for da day as my food...*way to go...on my way to dieting!*gah!but der is actually other reason on y im not eating these days...
3) Relationships : are sweet at da begining..but to last is another hard thing...summary is...FOREVER shudnt be in dictionaries..cuz its a white lie for couples to use...
4) Crush : will alws occur..a reali sweet thing in life (^^) i have a huge crush on Lee Hom...i bet u all knw... xD
5) Power Rangers : a stupid cartoon or wat so eva u call it..but i admit..i do watch wen i was young
6) Life : is so fragile..is so precious cuz u may lose it any day
7) The President : no comment on this...
8) Yummy : delicious?DANG!im so not in da mood to think bout FOOD!!
9) Cars : BMW is da best...im juz so not dat into Merz nor other luxury cars.
10) Movie : HATES horror..LOVES romance..and any other genre
11) Halloween : wud like to go trick or treat cuz i LOVE candies!! *i hav a sweettooth*
12) Sex : have protected sex! cuz i knw a gal dat had abortion twice and da baby came and haunt her...*padan muka to her* xD
13) Religion : was skeptical on Christianity wen i rcd da age of curiousity..i knw...my bad for doubting God.
14) Hate : LIARS da most! smokers...drinkers...back-stabbers.
15) Fear : Darkness and loneliness...
16) Marriage : a holy vow to stay together forever..do not marry if u plan to get a divorce..cuz its a waste of money to organise a wedding ceremony.
17) Blondes : are stupid?!lol...dats wat i heard from ppl...
18) Slippers : comfy and nice if its all pink!! xD
19) Shoes : LOVES converse..da nicest casual shoes ever made!
20) Asians : proud to be one!!
21) Pass time : blog..online..sleep..watch my dramas on youtube..etc...but da frequent thing i do is...watch dramas on utube (^^)..thk god for utube!!
22) One night stand : neva tot bout it...but if i knw ny of my frenz did it...i'll look down on them
23) My cell phone : i tot it'll b dead aft breaking up...but noooo...its da opposite..my frenz will call or sms me everyday to find out how am i doing...*i luv u guys!!*
24) Smoke : hate it hate it hate it!do not smoke infront of me...
25) Fantasy : who doesnt have one?gals luvs day dreaming...
26) College : TARC da worst coll eva cuz dey juz suck!suck in administration...suck in adjusting da timetable for students...
27) High school life : da worst i tink...neva wana turn back time to da days dat im stuck in dat stupid idiotic class...but tuition life was fun...
28) Pajamas : shorts and huge Ts...
29) Stars : are lil bright shiny stuff at nite in da sky?lol...
30) Center : of attention?how i wish....
31) Alcohol : a no no...im not a fan of it...i hate bitter stuff and alcohol are alws bitter..
32) The word love : is diff from da word like...and ppl like to jumble these two words as if they meant da same...for me LOVE does not exist..and its only a word dat couples use
33) Friends : are da best...dey will neva let u down nor leave u alone nor make u sad...dey r alws der during ur hard times and happiness..dey r like God's greatest gift to a person.
34) Money : cudnt buy everythin in da world..u cudnt get LOVE..frenship..loyalty...honesty or care...
35) Heartache : is da hardest thing to cure...it hurts deep inside but no1 cud eva knw how much it hurts..oni da 1 suffering from it knws da pain.
36) Time :cudnt count how much a person luvs u...long relationship doesnt count da seriousness of a couple...
37) Divorce : is a bad bad thing...illegal under da law of christianity...as i said..DO NOT marry if ur gona divorce later on in life.
38) Dogs : are the cutest pet eva...dey r human's best fren.
39) Undies : dat are sexy!phew!lol...do i sound lesbo?
40) Parents : will neva let their kids down...without them im nothing.
41) Babies : are super cute!but if u wan me to clean their poo?eeeewww...no thk u...xD
42) Ex : HISTORY...i try to get over it...i try to stop my tears from flowing down witout me realising it..i try to tink of other things...i try to keep myself busy with activities...tho i stil think bout him...cuz i aint a computer who cud erase everything like dat with juz a click.
43) Song : witout it..i cudnt live..cuz ill be so bored...i will be alws humming to a song weneva im alone.
44) Color : ADORES PINK!!but lately...into orange and yellow and purple...lol..
45) Weddings : da happiest ceremony...cuz its another step up in live
46) Pizza : DOMINOES!!!!and i luv pizza's with pineapple topping..pizza hut sucks...xp
47) Hangout : karaoke is da best place...a time to relax and go wild
48) Rest : sleeping da best rest u cud ever wish for in life...
49) Goal : getting an ACCA cert...having a better person to care for me...and living da most happiest life on earth...
50) Inspiration : songs dat are meaningful...and experience faced in life.



Then tag 10 people that first come into your mind
1. joyce cheong
2. Tim
3. Gilson
4. Kyle
5. Deborah yaw
6. Anyone who wana do it (^^)

Tears dat talks

Truth hurts...

Reality KILLS...

both came my way at da same time..

and i wasnt thinkin straight da whole time...

da feeling dat im feeling now cudnt be express in words...

i dun knw how to explain it out..

and i dun knw y im so sad wen im all alone at home...

mayb cuz he was like a pillar...

dat i cud alws lean on...

or mayb i was so into him..

dat i stick on him like a glue...

crying is like my daily hobby nowadays..

cuz i will neva realise dat my tears are actually rolling down...

it hurt to da core dat sometimes i reali cudnt cry

but come to think of it...

does tis all worth?

ppl call me stupid...

ppl call me dumbo...

i knw i am from da very start...

but u may neva knw how i feel nor how i think..

im tryin to get on my feet..

im tryin to move on..

IM TRYING...

dat word reali is hard to fulfill..

my sheets are alws wet at nite...

my eyes will alws be swollen in da morning...

but wat cud i do?

im not emotion-less...

i hate tis fact...

but now i juz gota accept it..

i hate bein alone...

but now i gota get used to it...

i hate bein all so sad alone...

but now i gota face it all alone...

i hate da darkness at nite..

but now i gota go thru it alone...

i wonder does he have a 'target'..

cuz he was neva been so cruel to me...

i wonder was all his truth wer lies from da very beginin..

cuz his heart cud be hard as a stone rite now.

no matter how much i still luv him...

no matter how much i still wan him back...

its all impossible rite now...

this is da end of US.

my heart is stil fragile..cud it heal?cud i be myself back soon?how much longer i hav to endure tis pain?how much longer will my sheets be wet all nite?wen will i overcome tis?WEN????!!!!
i wana thk my frenz for alws bein der for me..calling me everynite juz to make sure dat im alrite...and thx for cheering me up by saying dat u all will introduce me a better guy...and thx for taking me out juz to sing my heart out like a wacko...thx for everything..and i thk god for u all..